Strength

Day 155 (1/15/2017)
Sometimes you need to stop talking and just start doing. I’ve been on my journey to health since I was about 15. I was very overweight at the time and in need of a lifestyle change. I dropped 35 pounds over the course of a year and a half and felt great. My blood pressure was normal, my self-confidence was up, and my health was great.

However, I’ve wanted more since about a year ago. Since the beginning/middle of my senior year I knew I wanted more. Sure, I’m healthy. I look fine. I can run. Walk. Hike. Jump. Stretch. This isn’t enough. Losing weight wasn’t hard for me – all I had to do was eat less. Then I slowly started adding in at-home-workouts and I’ve been able to maintain for about two years, which is great. I’m not going to discredit myself because getting off the couch is as hard for me as it is anyone else. Not eating those goodies is painful. Honestly since moving to New York I haven’t been avoiding crappy food at all. At this point my living in New York isn’t anything new. This is my life for now. I can’t pause my goals just because of my circumstances: you are in control of your reactions.

I’m excited to push myself mentally and physically. At this point I’ve realized that I can’t sit in self-pity over the fact that my New York living isn’t what I thought it was going to be. Okay, things didn’t turn out as expected… what can I focus on that is in my control instead? Myself. I can go to the gym five days a week and kick ass. I can eat like a clean machine. I can push my body to the limit just to see how far it can go. I can stretch myself mentally to enforce my strength.

I’ve done a lot of talking. At this point I’ve been in New York for five months and I only have four and a half left. I’m going to have something to show for it. Strength, control, focus, ambition, success, ability. I’ve had the same desires for over a year, yet I never did anything to reach for them. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again but expecting a different result – it’s time to do something different.

Cheers to strength; be it determined for yourself both physically and mentally.