Yesterday was another rough day. I got up and worked out at 6am, took a shower and had my smoothie, but by the time I was walking out the door I was already exhausted. I could barely keep my eyes open walking to the subway and I had to set an alarm on the train to ensure that I didn't miss my stop. Work was slow, but I actually got all the assignments for one of my classes done. I tried to remain productive and I tried to remain positive, but it's hard some days.
I stress about money, school, work, and heath for the now, but I also stress about school, work, and living arrangements for the future. I don't like not having a plan because without a plan I don't have something definitive to work towards. I understand that this is a normal part of life, most people don't have an exact plan, I'm only 18, and shouldn't be stressing myself this much. I just feel as though my life is going by day by day without my control. But that is the way time works.
Today has already been better. I went to bed early and slept in until 7:30. I added more protein to my smoothie and ensured that I'd have bread with peanut butter to eat as soon as I got to work. I have more energy and have already gotten a few things done. There are ups and downs no matter your economics, place of residence, age, amount of support. None of that matters. There will be success, and there will be struggle.
I often go through life taking shallow, fast paced breaths (figuratively), so maybe it's about time I slow down and take a couple deep breaths (figuratively).
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